Happy 20th Birthday Aki!

2nd of May. I woke up with a smile, but with a pain in my heart. You were in my dream and as a baby. You were in my arms, heavy, fat, and laughing. Your saliva bubbles in your little mouth, your chubby hands reaching for my face, you look at me with so much happiness. The second I glanced at you, you have grown up. The family had the usual afternoon happenings at home, assembled in our old green dining table, and you were preparing to leave. You looked back, serene, you didn't say a word and out you went.

You never came back.

That was your way of greeting me on my birthday. Thank you for visiting my dreams, Aki. It's been a while. Tita is still hurting, you see, the pain grows deeper with time. 

Today, on your birthday, I pray that you are well, laughing, and celebrating above the clouds. I hope my love will always reach you in heaven. I will keep you in my heart until I see you again. Happy birthday Ki.

We miss you Aki.